I'm at a point in life where nothing seems too clear, i dont know what I'm doing. I was an just above average student, passed +2 long time ago in 2017, after that kept arguing with mother that I don't wanna do the job that was offered to me as "dependent" after my father had passed away , my younger brother joined that later Till than i was doing BSC had no interest, dropped out of it, and just for sake of doing graduation graduated with BA in economics, at that time i got into doing various tech stuff ( making some small apps etc ). I tried harder to get into it but india is cruel and I'm average...... So i decided to enroll in MCA last year in a tier 3 private college with almost non existing placement Mistake after mistake after mistake.... Now you all know the state of job market... They say its getting harder for the freshers. Been applying for internships on intershala and other websites but still here with no internship. After this much setbacks even my interest is now like - okay it's just a chore, i have stopped enjoying any programing or anything, i still like it i wouldn't say i enjoy it... I don't even know what am i doing with life, where will i end up. Sometimes my worry is whether i will be able to even make any money or not. I have no desire to join any government job... Just pushing into up skilling, but setback after setback, is forcing me to accept that nobody is going to give a job that too as a fresher in private sector to an old stupid 25 year old unemployed man.