NEET 3-Year Dropper Feeling Depressed and Suicidal

Mai class 12th mai hu aur mai ek jee aspirant hu lekin maine class 11th mai kuch bhi preparation nahi ki jee ki mai sirf coaching jati thi aur notes banati thi lekin mai jab class 12th mai aayi tab meri aankhe khuli ki maine kuch bhi nahi padha hai sirf time waste kiya aur ye sab mujhe class 12th ke june mai realise hua . Ye sab isliye hua kyuki mai bohot lonely thi , na mera koi dost tha, na meri behan mujhse baat karti hai aur mai apni past memories mai khoyi rehti thi aur mujhe mera ek school ka friend bhi pasand tha aur mai pura time sirf uske hi bare mai sochti rehti thi aur maine ye sab usko bataya bhi tha that I like him pr uski taraf se aisa kuch nahi tha . Jiss karan mai depression mai chali gayi pura pura time sirf uske khayalo mai rehna start kar diya . Pr ab sab kuch chhod diya maine , usko bhi aur coaching ko bhi . Abhi 15 November 2023 hai , maine class 11th ka padhna start kar diya hai zero se aur boards ka bhi kar rahi hu . Mujhe bas guide kariye mujhe kya karna chahiye ab

sir mai ek saal neet ka prepare kiya dropout tha neet me ho to jayega par undar se doctor wali feeling na aati hai sir kya mere liye mbbs karna thik rahega

hi Anu Mam, Mai Ravi Delhi se, meri saadi 2023 feb hui thi meri wife ka afire uske sage chote fufa ke sath chal rha tha saadi se phale se, Saadi ke 3-4 months baad ek baar maine use room band kr ke insta video call pr baat karte hue pakda muze saak hua and to maine uske insta apne mobile mai chal liya ye baat usko ni pta thi par use sak ho gya muze pr to apne fufa ko chupke se facebook masanger pr bta rahi thi ki mere husband mere insta or chala rhe h msg mt krna and us pr call par baat kri maine sab dekh liya kya baat hui ghar aa kr phale gusse mai tha but baad mai use pyar se samjya to usne muze bas yahi bola ki meri inse baat Jan 2023 se ho rahi h bas baat krna acha lagta hai attraction ho gya hai maine use samjya ki age se baat mat krna, uske kuch months baad us ne aye din Suicide krna police ki dhamki dena, chat se kunda start kr diya uske family ko bulya family bale kai baar aa kr samja kr chakle jaate ye every week hona start ho gya ladai hona , abhi June- July 2024 ko uske exam the bo dene gai and muze khai se pta chala ki bo exam dene ke sath apne fufa se bhi baat krne lagi hai and us se mili bhi hai maine prof dudna start kiya and use pucha ki tu mili hai ki nhi apne fufa se usne muze bola han achank mil gai thi but maine baat ni ki iska fufa Rampur mai ratha hai or ye Ghaziabad mai center tha to ye achanak se milna ni ho sakta maine pucha to bo usi baat pr rahi uske baad maine pucha kis ke phone se tu apne fufa se baat karti h to mana krne lagi mai nhi krti baat sabki kasam kha li usne, maine jab search kiya to muze pta chala bo mere samane bali padosi ki ladki se phone le kr baar krti thi bo use phone de deti thi use nhi pta kha baat krti thi ye maine uske ladki ki call history nikli to pta chal kai baar isne baat ki hai apne fufa se jis din iska exam tha uske baad us din bhi ye mile ab mai kya kru aap batao alag ho jaau ya kya kru aap batato