I am a 39 year old IT professional and need advice about my difficult life and relationships. At 25 I was forced into a marriage arranged by my parents with a powerful family even though I knew the girl had multiple affairs. The marriage lasted less than 10 days. When I refused to take her back I was falsely arrested and spent 14 days in jail. After a long legal battle I divorced her in 2015 but had to pay a large sum from my fathers savings. During this time I had a physical relationship with a woman I never loved or promised commitment to. Later I found out she was a widow and became pregnant. Since 2013 I have been supporting her and her child financially because she threatened me with false accusations. She moved on in 2017. At the end of 2017 I started dating a younger woman who was my first wifes cousin. She knew about my past pain but not about the child. We agreed to marry but her parents opposed it due to pressure from my first in laws. We married via registered marriage but my first in laws filed a case against us and humiliated my parents. Our marriage had many problems fights no intimacy and constant tension over my support for the other woman. She said she felt naive marrying me and that leaving me was like ending a bad phase. For seven years I focused on her but she now uses harsh words and emotionally moved on. Meanwhile the woman I support is seriously ill. In 2024 we moved to the US but after a month my wife became aggressive and left me. I lost my house and car there and returned to India. We live in the same house now but she is pursuing divorce dating someone else using my resources and causing me great pain. I feel empty and broken despite therapy and spiritual efforts. She said I am mentally unstable and cursed never to find love again. Deep inside I know my intentions were pure and I am full of love. My questions are 1 Will I find true love again as a middle class man over 39 in India 2 How do I heal deep emotional wounds and stop being triggered by my past 3 How can I rebuild self worth and attract a genuine partner 4 How do I cope living under the same roof with someone who emotionally left me 5 How can I find peace and rebuild my life after so much trauma Please advise thank you