Dear ma'am, I am going through a tough mental state right now. I do not know what state is this. It may be fear, lack of confidence or anything else.

On 25th November 2019 I underwent surgery for anal fissure and piles.

It took a long time to heal as I was suffering from constipation even after surgery.

Every morning i would have a trauma like situation before going to bathroom. My stool would be hard enough to pass with blood both before and after surgery.

I generally get nervous after seeing blood. In the meantime surgery has been healed.

Even today I have constipation.

I suffered from rhinitis like situation after surgery by consuming fruits and curd to make stool soft. feel difficulty in breathing

With these medical conditions I developed a mental condition at which i always feel sick myself. No mood or energy to do anything. Fearing for life.

When I wake up in midnight it gets very tough again to sleep. I sweat a lot.

There is so much negative thought in my mind at night. I feel heavy in my head. I fear every sound I hear which disturbs and terrifies me.

I consulted a psychiatrist 7 days ago; he told me that it is fear and lack of confidence. He has given me medicines to overcome fear.

Kindly suggest ma'am at which state I am and help me. I am actually obsessed with my health and my life.

Every moment I feel I would die. Nervousness grips me. I have lost weight of around 18 kg post surgery.

Break this mould that you are in please. You already have by sharing here on this platform. So that’s a courageous step towards a better life.

How can you do this?

This may sound very instructional, but since you aren’t a client that I work directly with, this is something I can offer you on top of my mind.

Firstly, please work with a Psychiatrist who also believes in alternate intensive Mind Therapy that you absolute need right now.

They need to work in tandem for you to get to a better state. There will be a point in time when the medication can be weaned off as the alternate therapy starts to work on you. That’s why both these experts need to see eye to eye and work for you and with you and not stick to their ground. Please touch base with groups/friends who can help you

In the interim, do the following almost like a prescription…it can be an ally to you.

• I want you to cover your walls with pictures of positive quotes and images that you can see first thing in the morning
• Hang out with people who nurture and nourish you
• Eat only freshly cooked food without preservatives
• Everyday pen down 5 things that you are grateful for
• Spend time with Nature; walk barefoot on grass, immerse your hand into water for a few minutes everyday and let go of what doesn’t serve you
• Spend time going back into places in your mind when you actually were happy; celebrate it

And most importantly, move in with your family and allow them to step into care for you till you are back on your feet.

Please take care and I wish you a good healing.