My friend who is divorced and she is planning for 2nd marriage. She was having horrible experience in first marriage as her husband was having multiple affairs and later he was taking treatment in STD clinic but not known for what disease. she is planning for second marriage and she doesn't have any symptoms of STD. Whether she has to take test for STD and whether these test results in pvt lab are confidential as she is worried? Who are the agencies these report are accessible?

My friend who is divorced and she is planning for 2nd marriage. She was having horrible experience in first marriage as her husband was having multiple affairs and later he was taking treatment in STD clinic but not known for what disease. she is...

Respected Anu Madam, Your advice will be of great importance and valuable to me.I really appreciate your answers and I want to take your valuable guidance. I sincerely request you to take time to go through lengthy mail. Please oblige and help. Madam, I got married in 1995. My wife though well-educated often gets into her parents' shoes and never found to be satisfied with me. Unlike me, she was from a well to do family. Based on my education and job, I got married to her. Most of the time she used to spend time at her parents' place, say around 5 months in a year. Rest of the period also hardly we used to be together -- maximum 4 to 5 times a month. In 1997, we were blessed with a daughter. In 1999 she had a miscarriage. In 2002 I went to the USA, but could not sustain and came back in September 2002. In April 2003, she had hernia surgery, wherein she was diagnosed as HIV positive. When I got tested I was negative. I was told that during the 1999 abortion, there was a blood transfusion during which she must have got acquired the HIV. We didn't reveal this to my family members. Our parents are aware of this dangerous health issue. But I used to suffer extremely bad in all respects.We started living independently since 2003, and I used to take care of her in all respects. We never had any conjugal relation since 2003 (I was 35 years old then). Even before 2003 it was very minimal and formal.Every now and then we used to fight during which she used to be very aggressive and nothing less than me in anyway. As a woman she has zero tolerance level. The slightest of things would offend her.However things kept going. In November 2015, her health got worse and irrespective of consulting doctors, it was not improving. Her CD4 count (immunity level for healthy living) had gone down to dangerous levels of just 10%. Her liver got affected with water accumulation and she was diagnosed with TB. At that time, by God’s grace, with great difficulty I found a doctor, who gave her a second life. For 18 months, I helped her to get back to normal condition while I was dealing with financial and mental stress. In 2021 during Covid also I saved her life.In the absence of any satisfaction, happiness or love, I never neglected or ill-treated her. In fact I provided her a very comfortable life in all respects and behaved with her in a usual way. In 2018, I sent my daughter to the US for MS as per her choice. In 2019, I purchased a 3 bedroom flat as per my wife’s choice and consent and presently we are living in that. I give her Rs 10,000 per month as her personal expenses apart from providing all other things.During my wife’s treatment in 2015, I came across a divorced working woman whose father also died of HIV. Slowly, she also understood my position, we exchanged views and became closer. ?She was an extremely fine lady with lots and lots of love and affection. She never expected any money or small material things from me. I can say she is a very nice and good woman, whom any person will rarely come across. I felt very happy with her. She also got very much attached to me because of my attitude and behaviour. Of course I never told my wife or discussed this relationship. This woman is living separately with her grown up children about 30 km from my residence. But, we love each other so much and have a lot of affection for each other. Sometimes, very occasionally, I used to speak to this woman. But I never knew that my wife was observing me. In January 2022, my wife made a big issue out of this. She is suspecting each and every call and movement of mine and looking at me very cheaply, which I am unable to tolerate.I did so much for her and put my life at stake to bring her back to normal life from a dangerous disease. She is just not able to understand me. If she doesn't understand my necessities, how can I be happy?Madam, now my concern is:1. In 2015 after second woman came in my life and after observing her for about 7 years, I found her very nice, independent, amicable, tolerable, Good behaviour, hard-working and good looking lady. We never want to lose each other, and we will be mutual support to each other in future circumstances. I am 55 and she is 45. My wife is 50.2. Because of my wife’s nagging, I cannot sacrifice the second woman. I am very much committed to her and want to support her in all respects for the rest of my life. She is the only person who understands me apart from my mother.3. At my house, I am being treated like a paying guest by my wife. Morning tiffin and night dinner she will cook for me. There is nothing more. Days are going very heavily. Only on need basis, we will talk. There is no affection or love.4. Being in a responsible position I feel very stressed, depressed and I am not able to execute my duties. I have five years of service left to me and I am unable to understand how to lead the life later, in case my wife survives.5. I have not done any injustice or ill-treated my wife but in case something happens to her, what will happen to me? I have not done anything out of lust. But as a man, I too will have some feelings towards a woman. But my wife never understood this basic concept and got adjusted.Neither she will provide me any love (since 2003) nor she will tolerate any woman in my life. Though I don’t give her any pain, I feel this is unfair and sadist.Because of the conditions prevailing around me and as a man, I was bound to do the above. Under these circumstances please advise me what should I do, thinking down the line after 5 years of my retirement?Your advice will be a great help to me. Kindly oblige to address the above.

Ans:

Dear RM,

Thank you for being a caring husband and being by your wife’s side no matter what.

The dilemma that you face is something that actually needs a solution from you and not anyone else.

Try describing this to anyone and they might play moral police, advice you to do the right thing, forget the other woman etc.

What is it that you want?

It seems to me like you have stuck by your wife solely out of duty and care and you want to continue to do so.

In that case, how will your wife understand the new connection with the other woman?

How will the other woman accept who you are currently?

It is really difficult to tread on two different paths and to expect either is to understand is equally a difficult ask.

The least you can do is, keep it all transparent (it might sound impossible), talk to your wife to reassure her that your friendship with the other woman is in not in anyway going to undermine her position in your life.

If this does not seem feasible, I can’t see any ecological (something that aligns to your values) way to deal with the situation.

You might not be able to pursue a relationship under the wraps with your wife knowing about it and it is not fair to either of the women.

So, choose wisely and do what seems right keeping in mind that you cannot easily live two lives separately and expect to fulfil both at the same time.

All the best!