Hello, i am 15 years old......my 10th result just came out and i got 97%......actually i have always been a topper since i was small but in 9th i started getting bored of always studying and i got tired .....so i started drifting away from studies.....my grades dropped continously......and when the results came for 10th boards.....i have scored less than many people that i know were not toppers rather some were even below average.....my parents are really disappointed and are telling me that if i would have gone to classes for subjects, i would have gotten better marks......i didn't go to any classes in 10th standard for studies.....because i was very tired of constanty trying to be the best.....now i have joined coaching for NEET preparation to give neet in 2027......i really want to get the best attitude and marks back which i lost and became a phone addict......i want to show the world that i can do it.....i want to be successful......pls guide me.....i didnt tell this to my parents because i am really dissapointed in myself.....pls help

Please help me, I am 20 years old. I pass out class 12th from Maharashtra board in 2022, I have been preparing for NEET exam from class 11th, 2 years I studied in Aakash Institute gave NEET after class 12th, my first attempt 289/720 (2022). After that I decided to take one year drop, so I went Kota studied in Allen Institute for one year, My father took a loan of 5 lakhs for me, but again I failed in second attempt 362/720(2023), came back home, enrolled in a private university for bsc biotech and along with it I again start preparing, now only 6 days left for exam & i have not touch my book since last 1 month, I studied hard for few months after second failure but then I quit studying I waste my time into relationship,porn, overthinking, masturbation etc. Now what I should do I know I will fail again in my third attempt but what I will do after that? Should I start prepare for UPSC? Should I do BBA ? Im totally confused about my future! ease someone help me should I take regular admission into some university? Should I do BA? Im totally fucked up, I have even tried to end my life so many times, I have even ran away to haridwar when I was in Kota ..but things dont happen according to me i always failed in anything I do...My friend now are in their third year they will complete their undergraduation & im here whining about my life.. even my parents have started to hate me..leave relatives...please guide me my mental health has been derailed by these exams...please help me ???? i dont jave even friends to whom i share my pain and from whom i should get guidance

My parents and even I don't think that I can crack neet in remaining 3 month with zero knowledge. Actually they are supportive but in last 2 years I didn't study and been wasting time and scored -8 to 350 marks in mock test with average score of 270 to 250 out of 720. Im just depressed and I don't think I'm serious and I can't achieve anything in my life . Im just eating sleeping wasting time . I cannot even full fill my parents wish and I'm just lazy fatty and not consistent on study and weight . I am just this even I disappointed my parents with my 10th marks by scoring 74% by wasting whole year and reading day before exam I scored this but I never told about it to them . I think I have ability to be topper but I don't know why I am not able to do so. My goal is also to loose 25 kg in 3 month but I'm not at all serious but I'm gaining weight. Im not controlling my feelings just like lust. Im just lazy, sleepy. I have a mindset of sleeping from 10 pm but watch phone till 12am and asleep and awake at 8 am. This became my routine. I have to avoid but I'm unable. My parents are good but on seeing my routine and marks they scold and demotivate and show me my unableness and if I won't crack neet this year my parents will be disappointed and my relatives humiliate me and my parents and they loose their reputation and my father decided to marry me and it's my goal to join AFMC. But even knowing all these facts i couldn't study. Actually my coaching centre completed whole syllabus but I didn't understood anything there and I neet mare time for self study. I made plan it is 100% correct one but I'm not at all following that , even realising these all from 2 years I'm not doing and focusing. I don't know why and what to do.