How to Manage IIT JEE Coaching and Class 12th Studies After Repeated Failures?

I am jee aspirant and couldn't clear it . I was sure that in 2nd attempt i will do it for sure but when I saw the results they broke my courage. I convinced my self its ok u have many other options but after seeing my cbse 12th results its hard that there is any option left for me. I thought for bits pilani but I am not getting aggregate above than 75% . Now , I have no courage to start again . I am depressed what should I should do. There isn't any single day that I am not scolded for my marks and mistakes . Even now my parents aren't that much supportive like they were . It feels like just because u can't clear ur entrance exam , ur everything is judged. My parents are saying of taking drop but its hard for to take a drop. I don't know what should I do. Every day its getting hard to live thinking that again someone will come and make me count my mistakes.

I completed my 12th grade in 2022. They say that if the foundation of a house is weak, the chances of the whole house collapsing are very high. Similarly, my situation was affected by the Corona period. My 11th and 12th-grade basics were completely messed up, and I needed to fix them but couldn't. Due to some wrong decisions, I took a drop in my first year to prepare for JEE on my own, but the results were not good, and I failed. Actually, I couldn’t get much output from myself. During that critical time, I sought advice from people around me. Some suggested joining a local college like MBM Jodhpur for Petroleum Engineering or JIET College, while others advised me to take a second drop and prepare for JEE with coaching since I had already studied a bit. So, I took a second drop and also filled out a form for a BA in History, Political Science, and Public Administration, intending to study for the exams just two days before BA Exam to pass and also to minimize risks as I had taken 2nd drop. Despite taking a second drop, I still didn’t perform well enough to get into any NIT or IIIT (and being from the general category added to the difficulty). My Maths was very weak. Then I attempted other entrance exams like COMEDK and JIPMAT, which is a management entrance exam. I’ve become crazy with all this. My interest in engineering completely faded, and I wanted to build a career in management. I wanted to study outside Jodhpur, so I searched for different entrances, but there wasn’t enough time for their preparation, so I couldn’t apply. In COMEDK, I ranked 49k, and my JIPMAT result is not going to be good. Please help me at this crucial moment. I’ve become CONFUSED AND EXHAUSTED because even after so much struggle day and night, I haven’t achieved anything. Now I’m unable to decide what to do next. According to my current situation, I have a few options: 1st :- Take admission in any branch at MBM Jodhpur through REAP. 2nd :- Take admission in Doon Business School for BBA Management Studies. 3rd :-Prepare for the SSC Stenographer exam, which is coming up in a few months. 4th :- Prepare for the RAS exam as per my father’s suggestion. 5th :- Go to Bangalore through COMEDK to any college I get, but I am not sure if it will be worth it. Please PLEASE PLEASE help me, guide me properly. ???????? If I consider doing my Masters abroad, there’s no financial security from my family to guarantee that.