विशेषज्ञ की सलाह चाहिए?हमारे गुरु मदद कर सकते हैं

Sir/mam...i have completed my 12th with pcmc and got pass out with 82% and started preparing for jee , taking 1st drop for it but i didnt get enough percentile for the admission in iit than i had taken 2nd drop also for jee so i can get nit or anyother but again it does not go well..now i an stuck in directionless path where i dont know what to do ...my parents are telling me to start preparing for gov job exam SSC with side graduation in bsc but i am afraid of not able to clear it also ..so i am thinking of getting admission in private btech college but its fees are high that stopping my parents for agreeing to it ..i dont know what i should do? i am already isolated by jee that i lost my confidence , will power, hope ..i want to gain that back but i dont know how ?