Can I crack JEE with no basic concepts and limited attempts left?

Hello mam, During the mid of my 12th, I began to serious think about what I am going to do after 12th, before that I just watched a lot of science related shows, and some books, so i thought of becoming a research scientist but i was never serious about it. I was never interested in engineering as it is a technical field, so i very recklessly ignored my jee which were during January in 2023. I gave 12th and got 89% . Still, i was in this dilemma what should I purse, i was thinking that there is stable financial life if i take engineering cse, but on the other hand, i had my passion, so I wanted to take pure science. I was really confused and kept over thinking about it, so i messed up my April attempt as well. After that, i had options to do cuet (for du etc) or join a local govt engineering college. But, i thought that I can get iisc( for bs research) through jee advanced next year if i take a drop and prepare for it because iisc has kashmiri migrant cutoff of 8000 crl rank. So thought it was good. Now, i am in my drop year but still the thought are lingering in my mind that i won't be able to have a stable life if i take bs, then ms after PhD, all that takes time and if done from abroad only, they can provide good financial stability. So I am really confused right now what should I do? My father spend 2 lakhs in 11th+12th and now 70K in coaching, i think how can I repay him... that's kinda silly but still....also I don't want a cooperative job. What should I do?? Please guide me mam 😭 please 🙏

I have completed my civil engg from reputed govt college in 2016 and after that I went for gate coaching i got 35 marks in gate 2017. (I know this is not my best I can do better). After that I started preparing for technical govt exams. After one year some of my prelims were missing by .25 marks 2 marks that time I gave up. And started doing site internship to start my own civil engg consultancy firm. But I got one opportunity to do job as lecturer in polytechnic college so I started doing job at polytechnic college. After 6 months again I started doing studies and cleared mains of state 2019 PSCs Assistant engg. And missed rrb je post by 2 marks in mains. After that exam corona came and I couldn't keep myself on the track and one year again wasted. In 2021 March I have started preparing for prelims and cleared prelims and for mains exam I joined one online class named super 40 and already half syllabus was over at time.of joining so I started watching lectures and as lectures were lengthy and so much lectures were there so I couldn't do revision properly and I lost my self confidence due to that coaching and it was totally waste of money. Again that time it was time everyone was saying do software classes to get job and many of mine friends done those classes so I also joined one to get job and successfully wasted another 6 months. I don't know what to do now. I still feel that If I can study for another 5/6 months I can clear rrb je. In between I got offer of 25k per month as site engineer I denyed that. It's been 8 years since my degree and still. unemployed. Please help me out.

I completed my 12th grade in 2022. They say that if the foundation of a house is weak, the chances of the whole house collapsing are very high. Similarly, my situation was affected by the Corona period. My 11th and 12th-grade basics were completely messed up, and I needed to fix them but couldn't. Due to some wrong decisions, I took a drop in my first year to prepare for JEE on my own, but the results were not good, and I failed. Actually, I couldn’t get much output from myself. During that critical time, I sought advice from people around me. Some suggested joining a local college like MBM Jodhpur for Petroleum Engineering or JIET College, while others advised me to take a second drop and prepare for JEE with coaching since I had already studied a bit. So, I took a second drop and also filled out a form for a BA in History, Political Science, and Public Administration, intending to study for the exams just two days before BA Exam to pass and also to minimize risks as I had taken 2nd drop. Despite taking a second drop, I still didn’t perform well enough to get into any NIT or IIIT (and being from the general category added to the difficulty). My Maths was very weak. Then I attempted other entrance exams like COMEDK and JIPMAT, which is a management entrance exam. I’ve become crazy with all this. My interest in engineering completely faded, and I wanted to build a career in management. I wanted to study outside Jodhpur, so I searched for different entrances, but there wasn’t enough time for their preparation, so I couldn’t apply. In COMEDK, I ranked 49k, and my JIPMAT result is not going to be good. Please help me at this crucial moment. I’ve become CONFUSED AND EXHAUSTED because even after so much struggle day and night, I haven’t achieved anything. Now I’m unable to decide what to do next. According to my current situation, I have a few options: 1st :- Take admission in any branch at MBM Jodhpur through REAP. 2nd :- Take admission in Doon Business School for BBA Management Studies. 3rd :-Prepare for the SSC Stenographer exam, which is coming up in a few months. 4th :- Prepare for the RAS exam as per my father’s suggestion. 5th :- Go to Bangalore through COMEDK to any college I get, but I am not sure if it will be worth it. Please PLEASE PLEASE help me, guide me properly. ???????? If I consider doing my Masters abroad, there’s no financial security from my family to guarantee that.