I'm married and mother to a 5 months old beautiful daughter. Before and after marriage I was working in a company as HR executive. I loved my job. Then I left my job because me and my husband was working in different locations. When I shifted with him, I tried a lot to get a job. But all in vain.
Maybe because of this I started getting frustrated. It affected my personal life a lot. I used to blame my husband as he never ever told me to quit. But somehow......
Then we shifted to our home town because of lockdown and my husband's WFH. And my frustration level is increasing day by day.
I lost everything. How to enjoy, happiness everything. I want to be happy but....
It's like I can't do anything for my daughter as well as for myself. I hate dependency and I am totally dependent on my husband even for a single penny.
I tried to commit suicide many times. Then I thought I should talk to my mother. I did. But nothing helped.
She used to tell me always that I have to live for the child now. Then I thought what I could do for her. Because if I m alone, sad, depressed from inside how can I be happy outside?
I used to motivate people and right now I want to end up my life. Can you help please?
Ans: Dear TS, What do you want for yourself? What do you want to make out of life?
You can choose to be sad and depressed and keep thinking of what hasn’t happened. Always do things that set you free, always think of things that set you free.
The more you choose to focus on what could have happened and what should happen, it leads you to a dark place.
Why think that you are dependent? Marriage is a space where both partners must have the comfort of growing together.
Let’s say someday if you have to step up and work instead of your husband, will you call your husband a dependent person then?
We all go through phases in life that challenge our mind and mental state. The sooner you accept this, the better you will sail through this.
After all, nothing is permanent. Instead of brooding over, if you gave yourself a fresh start and looked at opportunities in a different way, you may find something that is better than what you had initially been searching for.
And if ending your life, you think makes it easier, remember, it never has and it never will and DO think of your daughter who is solely dependent on you.
Please work with a Mental Health expert who will help put your priorities together and a good action plan as well to achieve simple goals in life.
Start first by being outdoors in Nature and please be in GRATITUDE for what you have in life. That will make you trust that LIFE IS GOOD! Surround yourself with people that nourish you.
Be in the best mind space. Best wishes.
